Thy Will be Done

This is not the first time that a very dear sweet beautiful girl brought me to tears.  My best friend and one of her beautiful daughters tend to send messages, quotes, texts or calls just when I need them.  Today when I was feeling a little overwhelmed and a little defeated, I received a text telling me to listen to a song.  I played it right away and listened to it in the background and thought....that was nice, and then I continued on with my day.

A few hours later I felt this ache in my heart and stomach and just sat down to take a minute to myself.  I decided to listen to that song again.  Here are the lyrics:

I am so confused

I know I heard You loud and clear

So, I followed through

Somehow I ended up here

I don’t wanna think

I may never understand

That my broken heart is a part of Your plan

When I try to pray

All I’ve got is hurt and these four words

Thy will be done

Thy will be done

Thy will be done

I know You’re good

But this don’t feel good right now

And I know You think

Of things I could never think about

It’s hard to count it all joy

Distracted by the noise

Just trying to make sense

Of all Your promises

Sometimes I gotta stop

Remember that You’re God

And I am not

So

Thy will be done

Thy will be done

Thy will be done

Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is

Thy will be done

Thy will be done

Thy will

I know You see me

I know You hear me, Lord

Your plans are for me

Goodness You have in store

I know You hear me

I know You see me, Lord

Your plans are for me

Goodness You have in store

So

Thy will be done

Thy will be done

Thy will be done

Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is

Thy will be done

Thy will be done

Thy will be done

I know You see me

I know You hear me, Lord

This beautiful song speaks volumes of what I am feeling. This song touched my heart and comforted my soul.  They will be done are the words that I always come back to.  They are words that I have a hard time with, words that hurt me, words that scare me because his will might not always be mine, but I know it is his will.

I miss this sweet family terribly. Every single one of them has made a lasting impression on our family.  Our families are intertwined and all of us are best friends.  Military life is hard.  We were blessed with meeting some amazing people in New York 6 years ago, some of them ended up being my best friends.  This beautiful family has been there for ours every moment of our journey and even though the Army took them all the way to Alaska, we have been fortunate enough to visit each other and talk regularly. M, I can not even begin to describe to you how special of a place you have in my heart.  You have a beautiful light inside of you that has always amazed me.  You have a gentle fire in your soul that has the ability to change people.  I am forever thankful for your random messages, quotes, and songs.  You have no idea the amount of time you have calmed my heart. I love you sweet girl. thank you for reminding me today a very important message. I miss you and can not wait to visit this fall.